to desire the replica

posted on: March 13th, 2009

When I was a little girl we were poor and weird. Double whammy. A disconnected phone or a temporary lack of electricity were small inconveniences that we just shrugged off and moved on from. I thought it was perfectly normal for your parent to take you to strange chanting gurus to whom you would have to bring bizarre offerings such as linen napkins, a pear or incense in lieu of a cash payment. Having a handful of pot seeds crunch and pop between your teeth as a snack or getting your school clothes at the Salvation Army were all common place in my world, and not at all odd or out of place. And yes my friends, a family of four can in fact live on fried egg sandwiches alone for extended periods of time. It is possible, and I am living proof.

Times are tough right now for most and I sympathies with those feeling the crunch of these four horsemen of the apocalypse economic times. I grew up under conditions that most people are just now having to adjust to. Some are fairing better than others- those willing to bend and stretch to meet their new situation- while others are stamping their feet and pulling hissy fits because frivolous shopping can no longer be used as an extra curricular activity and $8 coffees are no longer a realistic way to start each and every day. Contrary to my naturally pessimistic views I chose to look on the bright side because we’re here and lamenting it won’t change a goddamn thing. if you need a nudge in the “bright side” direction, consider this;

It’s the time to downsize the mountains of useless crap you’ve probably accumulated through out the years, a great time to get back to the essentials, and to use your imagination to find pleasure in the simple things. I’m not saying that the nutty soft flavor of a cracking pot seed is necessarily your kind of thing, but the memory of that taste takes me back to a time when things were a little more basic and a little less flashy. We’ve forgotten how to entertain ourselves. For those who have never had to, this is going to be an ass kicking and humiliating transition. For those of us who are familiar with having nothing yet never feeling as though we’re lacking, it’s a reminder of the difference between need and want.

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Exactly.

Jeannie Says:

Amen.

AMEN.
I haven’t been to Starbucks in over a month - nothing to announce to a crowd, but a huge feat for me. Me thinks renting movies and chillin’ on the couch with a Captain ‘n Diet is better than a sixty dollar bar tab (almost) any night.

Desert Rat Says:

I grew up for the most part in motels eventually they got microwaves (that was cool) A fun day was swimming in the pool all day long, eating a peanut butter and jelly sandwich thanks to the church who donated food and falling asleep on the bed my sister and I shared(not bondon different sister).
I could live on only paying my mortgage, because I don’t want anymore bad credit, if I had to,(top ramen is still cheap)which I did 4 months ago before I came back to help this old boss. Waste not want not either way I don’t complain.
This was a great post, many need to read it and take from it.

Phaedra Says:

And I thought my pot growing, deer heart eating(we eat all of the animal that we kill motto)insense burning, nudist camp family was odd - are you sure we are not related?

On a serious note thou, this is a great post.

suz Says:

Growing up with you I just want you to know that I never thought you were weird.
Compared to my family I thought yours was quite normal, and I was fairly jealous. I wanted your mom to be my mom and for you to be my sister… and well, even tho I didn’t want your brothers they were still better than the one I had!
I never really thought of you guys as poor. I guess I didn’t really think of it at all. It never occured to me because I always felt you had so much more than I did.
Inside the doors of your house was safety, love, calm and freedom. That was all that mattered. That and of course fabulous you! Those were the things that kept me coming back each and every day.
Having married a man who also grew up poor I marvel over the love that his parents have always bestowed upon him and his brothers. The same goes for your mom. A lady who was a student and usually had 2 or 3 jobs just to make ends meet. She always had time for her kids and everyone else’s. We may have had food in our fridge and electricity but we were short on what was really important. LOVE. FAMILY.
Yes! We can do without. We all should. Humble ourselves. Be hungry. Define want and need.
Your mom raised an incredible woman and also a few other kids who weren’t even her own. I would not be here if it weren’t for your mama! And you of course!

Great post!
xxx

Kim Says:

awwww. Suz you always say the sweetest things. I love you sugar.

Not only have we forgotten how to entertain ourselves, I think we’ve stopped relying emotionally on those around us. Who needs emotional support when you’ve got Starbucks and Forever 21? Admittedly, we tend to get closer when we share trauma, and there’s nothing more traumatic than a childhood full of government cheese and beatings. Maybe we, the Western society, needed this. I certainly think we deserved it.

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